Honesty.

Being honest.

Honestly I have always struggled with being happy. It often feels like being happy is so far out of reach, a foreign concept, a glitch of emotion, a fantasy.

I used to think that if and/or when I would fall in love it would solve all of my problems. What a silly notion it is to believe that you need someone to be happy. There is more to happiness, to life, than having a partner. One should be happy within themselves at all times, even through the dark and hard times that life brings everyone.

No one, not one person, walks the same path as another. We all have our own paths, our own journey, our own emotions and feelings.

I'm trying to find my way back to being happy alone. Yes being with someone is great. But my relationship status should not determine my state of being, nor should the hard times I'm struggling at the moment.

I believe in myself. I believe things WILL get better. I know things will get better. I will be happy again. I will stay strong. I will fight. I will live. I will love. I will win.

It's ok not to be 100% every day, all day. But I refuse to let myself give up. I will not give in to being a miserable git, all of the time. I can and will carry on. Life is hard. But life and it's chaos are beautiful, and things are always changing. It may seem slow, but I have faith that all will be well. Honestly.